STOPRY TIME EPISODE 4 (SWEET LOVE STORY)
To know his mother's reaction continue reading this episode...........................................................
EPISODE 4
She said, "I think you're ruining your life"
EPISODE 4
Little
later my mom came out and said, finish the discharge formalities let's take her
home.
We went
home. She was resting in Adithi's room and my mom gave her some food as per the
physician's instructions. Nethra requested us not to inform her parents as they
would just come and rebuke her. This will add to her pain and in no way will
give her relief or change the situation. Later, my mom came to my room and
said, "I wanna have a word with you"
I said,
"Yes mom, what's it about?"
She
said, "It's about Nethra"
I said,
"Mom I'm really sorry, actually I was very angry with her and I don't know
how I spoke all that. Maybe because of anger"
She
said, "There is nothing to feel sorry about. I knew you were in love with
her and I also knew that you didn't realize its love. She is not a bad choice
to regret; she is like this because of some bad incidents that happened in the
past; she is also a girl, a human being who is deeply in need of love that was
denied by her heartless parents. I'll talk to dad about this if you are serious
but before that I need to clarify certain things with you"
I
asked, "What is it?"
She
said, "She attempted suicide because of vexation as her parents have
applied for Divorce and her father is getting married to someone else after the
divorce. An insecure thought of their lives and future had made her depressed
and has been troubling her. That's why she had decided to end her life"
I
asked, "Mom anyway they are not together and the divorce is not going to
change anything. She could have told me Mom. Death is not a solution"
Mom
said, "When you are depressed you won't be able to think and decide
wisely. Do you know she hates men? She is friendly with you because you care
for her; respected her as a human being ignoring her callous nature and
grumpiness"
I
asked, "What's the reason to hate men in particular?"
Mom
said, "Do you remember one day when we were watching a movie she became
nervous and started to shiver"
I said,
"Yes, I do remember"
Mom
said, "Taking advantage of her family situation one of her relative had
been sexually harassing her for some time since she was thirteen years old.
This has affected her psychologically; it's kind of a mental disorder. If she
comes across such situations or thinks about it or if she sees something that
reminds her of that she becomes nervous"
I said,
"Mom, it's shocking. How could life be so cruel on somebody who is
helpless?"
Mom
said, "Life is like that. She wants to be happy, move around with friends
and lead a normal life like other girls of her age but this incident makes her
not to trust anyone and she thinks grumpiness and loneliness is a shield to
protect her. She is very timid in nature and fears about life but she portrays
herself as a bold and stern person. Now Arjun, tell me are you patient and
matured enough to handle a wife like her?"
I said,
"More than I know myself you know me better; you tell me mom will I be
able to handle this?"
Mom
said, "I don't know, but my advice for you is to stay calm and make her
feel comfortable with you. Make her trust you and love you. Love cures and
pacifies. You will have to be patient till that. It'll take time for her to
develop confidence in you. Love is not the relationship of two bodies. It's the
bonding between the hearts & minds of two individuals that lasts forever.
If you
really love her as much as you portray, you've got to give her some time. I'm
really concerned Arjun, she is not mentally sound right now and may not give in
to your urge for physical intimacy. This might frustrate you to the extent of
giving up your relationship leading to divorce or separation.
She
attempted suicide because she didn't like her parents' divorce and just imagine
her mental agony if she has to sail in the same boat. Take time, think and tell
me. Are you gonna take her as your wife or are you gonna give up your love for
the pleasure of physical relationship?"
Mom
paused for a moment and continued, "If you are going for the first choice
I'll talk to dad and at the right time we will talk to her mother or
father"
I said,
"Mom, there is no need to think I have made up my mind, It's now I love her
more. I wanna go for the first option. I wanna take her as my wife, I know her
heart is bruised; I wanna heal her hurting and relive her from her pains. It's
no fault of hers mom. I don't know if she will ever open up or mingle with
anyone like she did with us and vice versa if others would be able to
understand her pain and grief or not. I want to be by her side always mom"
Mom
said, "Don't be hasty in deciding. It's easy to say but practically it's
difficult. As a mother I wanna see my grandchildren. When I know the chances
are very less, how do you think I'll accept to it?"
I said,
"Mom, It's not a decision in haste. I'll stand firm and stick on to it
come what may. To fulfill your wish we can adopt children and if you want
grandchildren in your genes, technology has advanced to great extent in the
medical field. I don't wanna quit her for a silly reason mom"
Mom
said, "Good, I appreciate your decision but time alone will reveal the
zeal of your love. All that we discussed should be between you and me. You
should never discuss this with anyone especially Nethra and embarrass her at
any point of time in your life"
I said,
"I swear, I'll not discuss this with anyone"
Mom
said, "We'll talk about it later. Don't trouble her asking anything.
Okay" saying this she walked to the door and before she could leave,
naughtily smiling she said, "I have never come across such a worst and
wild proposal ever in my life"
After
the discussion I was thinking about it and I felt pity for her. I decided, I
should provide her a good life and replenish all the happiness and love that
she lost all these years.
I went
Adithi's room to see her. Adithi and Nethra were playing chess. I pulled up a
chair and sat next to Adithi and said, "Hi Nethra, how are you
feeling?"
She said,
"Better"
I said,
"Please don't ever try to do like this again what so ever. I know you're
grieving and your heart is bleeding but death is not a solution for anything. I
just thought what if your attempt had succeeded. The thought of losing you made
me wild and that's why I behaved badly. I didn't mean to hurt you but I meant
what I said. I'm very sorry if it had hurt you in anyway"
She
didn't say anything but silence. I asked, "Shall we go out for a drive and
get some fresh air?
Adithi
said, "Okay, let's go to ice cream parlor I need triple sundae. What do
you want Nethra?"
I said,
"Let me check with mom if I can take you out and if you can have ice
creams"
I asked
my mom and she said, "Okay do not buy Nethra a sundae but maybe a scoop if
she can take it. Don't stay out for a long time. Come back soon" Adithi,
Nethra and I went to the nearby park and were watching the people around, the
children playing etc. A swing was free and Adithi said, "I wanna
swing" and ran to the swing.
Nethra
and I were sitting in a bench and she asked, "Can you do me a favor
please?"
I
asked, "What is it?"
She
said, "I wanna see Mithra, can you take me to her? She is studying 9th
standard in St. Ebenezer School, Yelagiri"
I said,
"Let me check with mom and if your health cooperates we shall go this
weekend"
I
checked with my mom and dad during dinner. Dad said, "Let us all go and
visit Mithra this week end. Anyway we were planning for a family outing; let's
combine it together"
As
planned we all started. On seeing her sister both of them hugged each other and
cried. We didn't know what to do and how to react on seeing this. Soon they
became normal and were talking about their classes, studies, teachers, hostel
and lot more. We had lunch with Mithra, during lunch Mithra said aloud to
everyone, "Arjun is the only person Nethra has ever introduced as her
friend till now and I'm very happy that she has someone to share. Thanks a lot,
please take care of her. She is very reserved and will never tell anyone what
she feels"
I said
"Don't worry Mithra we'll take care" and we started back to Chennai.
On the way back Nethra said to my dad, "Thank you for organizing this trip
uncle, I'm very happy" Dad said, "Please don't say thanks a make me a
stranger. You're happy right, that's what I wanted child"
Just to
divert the topic I said, "Adithi is also studying 9th standard now".
Looking at Adithi, I asked, "Is Mithra's syllabus same as yours?"
Adithi
said, "Yeah, Same CBSE syllabus"
Overall
the trip was good. She was happy and I was happy too.
Days
passed on like this and I did not discuss with Nethra about my love for her and
her opinion about me except for the hospital incident. I tried to talk to her
sometimes but she avoided talking about it. We completed our under graduation
and went abroad for MBA and my dad helped her in getting an educational loan.
After MBA I took up my dad's business and Nethra joined a company. Adithi and
Mithra moved to 12th standard.
Everything
was fine and I asked my parents to ask Nethra's mother for her hand in wedding.
As Nethra's parents are divorced, her mother took up the responsibility of
settling them. Her father remarried and had a son. Nethra felt very ashamed and
awkward.
When my
parents asked her mother, she was not much interested in the wedding. My
parents were very keen on the wedding and later she accepted. Our wedding was
fixed. Before the wedding I wanted to ask Nethra if she was happy about the
wedding because there was no love proposal, no acceptance and we were not
lovers but good friends. I called her and asked, "Are you happy with the
wedding?"
She said, "I think you're ruining your life"
I
asked, "Why do you say that? Don't you like me?"
She
said, "It's not about like or dislike but it's because of me, my behavior,
attitude etc. You'll have a tough time with me because I don't know what a
family is, what a wife and husband relationship is or how to build it. All I
know is arguments, quarrel, hatred, tears, pain and grief. Since I didn't have
any pleasant memories during my childhood, I hate having children and I hate
myself too. I hated being a symbol of sympathy and shame among my friends and
relatives. I hate divorce. I think it's the more cruel than any cruelty ever
existed in our society. Divorce is worse than "Sati (A practice in the
olden days where a woman would be burnt alive along with her husband in his
death funeral)" No man can live a peaceful life with a woman with an
attitude like mine. It will lead to divorce and I will become the apt example
for the saying "Like mother, Like daughter""
I said,
"Nethra, You don't have to worry about the past and its negatives. All I
wanted to know is if you like me or not? Give me a straight clear answer yes or
no"
She
said, "Yes as a friend, but"
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